Awakening to Our Radiance

Awakening to Our Radiance

Why is trusting ourselves so hard? I’ve been pondering this question of late after some very deep introspection on what was holding me back from truly going after my dreams.

And, it boiled down to not trusting myself and believing fully in myself. In the core, in the depths.

It took some unplugging, silence, meditation, and two friends telling me like it was to see this in its entirety.

 

Why are we not able to see our full radiance as it really is?  Why are we afraid of shining bright and truly owning our power?

 

I believe much of this has to do with our loss of connection with our ancient birthright and wisdom that lies within our connection with the Earth.

 

For most of my adult life, I felt like I was searching. Searching for the next certification, the next level of healing, the next thing to make me feel WHOLE. Then, I went through a complete transformation that changed everything.

I KNEW on the primal level that everything I was searching for was false. That only within myself and within my connection to all things, all of Earth, would I ever find the peace I was looking for. The Wholeness my soul ached for. It was in a moment of intense grief after a loss, where I let everything go, because I had nothing else I could do. In was in this moment and the months to follow that the awakening and unfolding came.

 

It is in our birthright to reclaim this knowledge and many women have already been awakening to the wisdom that is whispering inside them.

 

That you are not separate from all that is. That you hold all the knowledge, awareness, peace, energy, and awakening inside you, right now.

 

It is the relaxing into, the RELEASING, that we can fee

 

l this oneness.

It is in the stillness, the rhythm of Earth herself that we can unfold into the energy that just IS.  It is the vital springing forth of all life. Shakti.  Life Force Energy. Chi.

 

We have been told we need to look outside ourselves to feel happy, abundant and peaceful. We have been told that we don’t have the power to heal ourselves. We’ve been told we need surgery, medications, and to “just get over it”.

 

When you awaken to your radiance, it is about truly believing in yourself, honoring your self, and connecting with your deepest power.

 

It helps us to make empowered decisions that come from our deepest desires, not from trying to please others or make others feel comfortable.

It is about releasing shame, blocks, and things that hold us from our truest potential.

This is the energy of all creation, and it is available within us and all around us.

We need a new paradigm for understanding our bodies and to not feel like we are being betrayed by them.

We also need practitioners who are skilled at holding space, honoring women, and understanding healing on the deepest levels.

 

That is one of my gifts.

 

The big ah-ha was that it was ONLY ME holding myself back.

And by holding myself back, I was holding out on my divine gifts to the world.

To even hold and acknowledge that I had a divine gift–to not just understand deep within, but within every cell of my body, and womb, was huge.

And, I decided once and for all, I was not going to be held back. It took a good 20 years of my life to come to this place.

 

On the fall equinox, I’m opening up my new offerings for women to heal, reclaim their radiance and activate their inner power.

 

There are several ways to work with me and I hope one of them resonates.

I look forward to our journey together dear one.

Activating Your Desires

Activating Your Desires

What is it that keeps us from realizing some of our truest desires?

I believe much of it stems from if we believe we are worthy.

Do we think we DESERVE all that we desire.

 

But who are we not to deserve this. Who told you that you do not. It may come from deep inside–stories that were created when you were very young.

Born out of how you had to walk in the world.

How you may have had to cope with certain experiences.

 

What I’ve discovered along my own journey with self-worth and desires is knowing that is it really only myself that has stood in my own way.

When I fully began to own that belief, things started to shift.

What I thought was possible began to expand.

 

My dreams that I thought I’d have to keep on the backburner forever started to manifest.

Even when it didn’t seem possible, there they appeared.

I am here to tell you, beautiful, that it is possible.

 

Even if you have no idea how you’ll get from A to B.

Don’t worry about the details.  What you need right now is strong, strong belief.

You need unwavering faith.  Even when shit gets hard.

 

Even when you think, what the hell am I doing?

Because if I’ve learned anything in the amazing journey I’ve taken in the last 5 months, when you blow the lid off what you think is possible, you make way for the impossible to manifest.

 

To help you discover what some of your true desires are,  I’d like to share an exercise to get in tap with them.

And, I’ve learned a way to do this as women is by checking in and tapping in with our heart and wombs.

 

Here’s how to practice:

 

Sit in a comfortable position or lie down with your knees bent, feet on the floor or bed.

 

Place one hand on top of your heart.

Place your other hand on top of your womb space.  Right above the pubic bone and rest your palm comfortably there.

 

Begin to tune in with your breath–begin to lengthen your exhale.

Breathe in and out of your nose.

 

Breathe into your womb space and then imagine a spiral–like a figure 8–connect up to your heart space.

 

Imagine this as a continuous flow between your heart and womb.

 

See if images, sensations, colors, or words appear to you. No need to force anything, just see what occurs.

 

If your mind wanders, bring it back to your breath, and deepen it again to focus your awareness.

 

Practice this for as short a time as a few minutes, or whenever feels right.

 

Try doing this daily for a couple of days.

 

SEE, FEEL, and HEAR what comes up for you.

I’d love to hear about your experiences, so please leave a comment below after you practice this if you feel open to sharing.

With love,

 

Getting in Touch with Desire

Getting in Touch with Desire

I was at a point a few years ago where I felt totally out of touch with my true desires and pleasure. I didn’t feel like I had the time and I had lost touch with this part of myself.

Between work, being a mama, and all the responsibilities that held, I didn’t know how to connect with myself the way I used to be able to.  And, this affected everything…my mood, my body, the choices I made, literally everything.

What happened to change it all?  I learned specific practices and techniques to connect deeper to pleasure and to putting my self-care and self-love first. Gasp! First!! How selfish! Or maybe you’re thinking, “that’s great for you, but I can’t do that, there are too many people depending on me, too many things to do!”

If you are thinking either of those 2 things, then I challenge you to read on, because tapping in with pleasure and desire are EXACTLY what you need to manage all those hats, and keep all the balls in the air, with more ease and joy.

Now, my life is filled with tapping in with my body, my desires, my pleasure on a daily basis. And you know what, the world did not stop, the dinner still gets on the table, the kids are still taken care of. In fact, all of this is done with more ease, more attentiveness, more pleasure.  Really.  And sex?  Well, let me just say it is a lot more juicy, spontaneous, and my desire is higher than ever.

 

The first step in getting in touch with desire and pleasure is to identify what your desires are and speaking them out loud, and writing them down.

 

When we desire to tap into pleasure or just to amplify our desire, we first have to identify what would give us pleasure and what help us tap into our desires.

 

Here’s an exercise for you:

Write down what’s in your way right now? What are the obstacles to you tapping in or receiving your desires?

What has kept you cycling in a pattern that isn’t serving you?

 

Is it lack of perceived time for yourself

Not asking for help

Taking on too many responsibilities

Feeling overworked

Distraction—using your precious energy to watch TV programs that help you zone out

 

Now take some deep breaths in and out slowly, and put your hands on your heart;

Ask yourself how you would FEEL, what are the sensations, if these things were not in your way?

Continue breathing until you can feel into your heart (use your “mind’s eye”) and see what your desires are—they are layered underneath all the “stuff”, the “shoulds,”, the “guilt”, and the barriers. Feel into the SENSATIONS that arise.

Continue your breathing as you tap in with these desires, and really feel them move in your body.  Your breathing may change, your sensations may shift.

Imagine light streaming into your heart center, or whatever feels right to you.

 

Take a moment after this exercise to reflect on what came up.

Write these desires/images/wisdom down in the present using “I AM”  For example: I AM….abundant in my life’s work. I AM…full of sexual desire for my partner.  I AM so comfortable with my body.

 

At first these may feel false when you start to write them down. This is resistance.  Go through it. 

Then, be truly brave, and speak these desires outloud.  YES!! OUT LOUD.

This is how you change what resides in your body.

 

Hit reply to this email and let me know if you did the exercise, what did you discover or if you got stuck with any part! I’d love to hear from you!