Why is trusting ourselves so hard? I’ve been pondering this question of late after some very deep introspection on what was holding me back from truly going after my dreams.
And, it boiled down to not trusting myself and believing fully in myself. In the core, in the depths.
It took some unplugging, silence, meditation, and two friends telling me like it was to see this in its entirety.
Why are we not able to see our full radiance as it really is? Why are we afraid of shining bright and truly owning our power?
I believe much of this has to do with our loss of connection with our ancient birthright and wisdom that lies within our connection with the Earth.
For most of my adult life, I felt like I was searching. Searching for the next certification, the next level of healing, the next thing to make me feel WHOLE. Then, I went through a complete transformation that changed everything.
I KNEW on the primal level that everything I was searching for was false. That only within myself and within my connection to all things, all of Earth, would I ever find the peace I was looking for. The Wholeness my soul ached for. It was in a moment of intense grief after a loss, where I let everything go, because I had nothing else I could do. In was in this moment and the months to follow that the awakening and unfolding came.
It is in our birthright to reclaim this knowledge and many women have already been awakening to the wisdom that is whispering inside them.
That you are not separate from all that is. That you hold all the knowledge, awareness, peace, energy, and awakening inside you, right now.
It is the relaxing into, the RELEASING, that we can fee
l this oneness.
It is in the stillness, the rhythm of Earth herself that we can unfold into the energy that just IS. It is the vital springing forth of all life. Shakti. Life Force Energy. Chi.
We have been told we need to look outside ourselves to feel happy, abundant and peaceful. We have been told that we don’t have the power to heal ourselves. We’ve been told we need surgery, medications, and to “just get over it”.
When you awaken to your radiance, it is about truly believing in yourself, honoring your self, and connecting with your deepest power.
It helps us to make empowered decisions that come from our deepest desires, not from trying to please others or make others feel comfortable.
It is about releasing shame, blocks, and things that hold us from our truest potential.
This is the energy of all creation, and it is available within us and all around us.
We need a new paradigm for understanding our bodies and to not feel like we are being betrayed by them.
We also need practitioners who are skilled at holding space, honoring women, and understanding healing on the deepest levels.
That is one of my gifts.
The big ah-ha was that it was ONLY ME holding myself back.
And by holding myself back, I was holding out on my divine gifts to the world.
To even hold and acknowledge that I had a divine gift–to not just understand deep within, but within every cell of my body, and womb, was huge.
And, I decided once and for all, I was not going to be held back. It took a good 20 years of my life to come to this place.
On the fall equinox, I’m opening up my new offerings for women to heal, reclaim their radiance and activate their inner power.
There are several ways to work with me and I hope one of them resonates.
I look forward to our journey together dear one.